Beyond The Spacious Building

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Welcome to Beyond the Spacious Building, a space for truth-seeking through exploration and reflection. This blog invites you to look beyond the ordinary and question your perceptions while searching for meaning. Each post aims to reveal deeper aspects of our experiences and shows how curiosity and self-reflection can lead to personal insights. Join me in discovering ideas that promote growth, authenticity, and a deeper connection with the world around us.

  • Anger is a Stage, Not a Destination

    Anger can be a necessary stage of deconstruction—but it was never meant to become home. Leaving Mormonism felt a lot like grief to me. Not just because I lost beliefs. I lost certainty. Community. Identity. Relationships. A version of myself I had spent over four decades building. People often talk about deconstruction like it’s an…

  • When “Mormon” Becomes a Legal Battle: Why This Isn’t Sitting Right With Me

    There has been a lot of conversation about the lawsuit filed by The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-day Saints against Mormon Stories Podcast and the Open Stories Foundation, and the more I sit with it, the more I realize this isn’t about one issue. It’s the combination of several things that, together, feel inconsistent.…

  • I Was Prepared—But I Wasn’t at Peace

    For most of my life, I lived with a quiet but constant sense that it was my responsibility to be ready—for whatever might come. That responsibility wasn’t limited to one area. It touched everything. It was spiritual, emotional, and practical all at once. I was trying to be obedient, to follow the teachings I believed…

  • The Quiet Shame of Starting Over — And the Rules We Were Never Meant to Carry

    I wasn’t expecting this feeling. I thought applying to finish my bachelor’s degree would feel exciting, empowering, maybe even victorious. Instead, after I submitted my ASU application, something completely different rose up inside me. I felt ashamed. It stunned me. I’ve done hard things. I’ve rebuilt myself repeatedly over the last few years. But this?…

  • Because Connection Has Always Been the Point

    When I look back on my life, one thread stands out clearly: connection. It has been the thread stitching every season together, sometimes fragile, sometimes unbreakable. I haven’t just sought it; I’ve fought for it. Protected it. Refused to let it unravel, even when the world around me pulled at the seams. That thread started…

  • Spiritual Abuse, Healing, and Hope in “Shattered Trust”

    Back in March, I had the pleasure of meeting Lila Tueller when we were guests on the same podcast. During our conversation, she mentioned she was collecting personal stories about spiritual abuse for a book she was working on. Her request resonated with me deeply, and I knew I had something to share. A few…

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